confused.

im dead tired.
its more of "pagod" in everything i do. sana lang wag ko makalimutang huminga.it signifies death..haha..
seriously speaking, i dont know why i am at this euphoric state of mood.im sad. confused. catatonic. lethargic. im getting nearer into losing consciousness.
but there's one good reason enough to make me alive and breathing. it's HIM. the Boss knows how to make his Miss smile at insults, bad comments, compliments, tiresome activities and all that negative criticisms thrown upon his princess. I dont know how was he able to do that. And i dont even know what makes him hold on to this relationship I regard as 'tale as old at time' kind of loving.
I miss him,actually. maybe that's why im euphoric right now. I wanna go home..stay with him for hours in Never ever Land..Sad to say, everything just dont click in time. Grrrr!!!! I wanna stay with him in a fantastic world.I miss those times when he plays my hair with his fingers, untangling them, the way he holds my hand as if he never wants to let go, those times when we stayed the longest time alone, those times when i made him eat carrots and he vomited alright!, that day when we took a picture which will be brought to Italy with love..hahaha!,and those days when he sings his heart out for me while holding a guitar, him hugging me from the back, and me sitting beside him with both feet on his lap.
I miss him..that's the common denominator.

I am disappointed.
Wish i could go home tomorrow..